Gone, But N3V3R 4Gotten

So Sincere, Gone From Here,

Each Day I Shed a Tear

It Was ONLY A Year

I Cry Myself 2 Sleep

Hoping You R Here

May I Deliver This Message with a Tear?

December 16^th Love That Day

Hope the Pain Goes Away

Will It Someday?

I’m Not Sure It Doesn’t Come That Way

Why Do I Have To Pay?

Can You Just Stay?

Why Did You Go Away?

Lost That Part

But it’s Not Your Fault,

I Love You with All My Heart

P.S. What EVER You Put Your Mind To You Can Do, Never 4Get That! Cherish What You Have While Its Here &’ Not When It’s Gone! Muah! I Love You All Dearly! I Love Everyone! I Didn’t Have Confidence But, Now I’m OVERDOSED On It! I Will Always Have Confidence! Some Kids Decide They Want To Give Up! But Not That Is Not an Option 4 This Kid! Named: Dakota Aaliyah! Lost The Love Of My Life At The AGE Of 1! I Cherish That Year! R.I.P Grandma! I Love You &’ Miss You Baby! Because At the End of Tha’ Day! I Know You Loved Me As Well! Muah!

December 16^th,2011 She Was NO LONGER Here !

Gone Already?

“What’s wrong Jayd?” Chynah asked. “Nothing I just need this class to end LIKE NOW!!” Jayd made sure she added that in her sentence. Jayd was pissed, she felt like Jeremy was TOO attached to her. “I’m like whoa Jeremy like umh…”  Jayd thought to herself. Ring Ring!!

“Yes!!” jayd said feeling relieved. “Bye Class” Mrs. Bennett said. “BYE!” the class said in unison. Sounding real irritated.

“Ugh! This class takes too long to move!” jayd said under her breath. She finally made her way out the class.

Out In the Hallway

“Jayd something is wrong. What it is?” chynah asked because jayd was acting REAL shady. “Look! I said nothing, why do you assume something is wrong with me?” Jayd said, Chynah backed away. “S-s-sorry, I mean I asked because you acting like you don’t know anybody.” Chynah was now mad at Jayd because jayd was acting like she was retarded. “Oh, I’m sorry I don’t mean to act like this.” Jayd stated. Chynah just looked; she knew Jayd couldn’t keep anything from her. Jayd decided to just spill what was on her mind, she sighed “Jeremy has been calling me like its no tomorrow, its starting to get annoying, I don’t want to break his heart but I think I will have to break up with him” Jayd was now looking like she was pissed at him. “Oh, jayd I’m sorry babe, I don’t think it’s necessary for you to break up with him, but if that’s what you choose then do you.”  Chynah was sad; she loved seeing Jayd & Jeremy together. Jayd felt bad she knew chynah loved seeing them together. “Thank you Hun, I needed that lecture” Jayd & Chynah laughed. Chynah & Jayd went different directions, because Jayd rode the bus home today & Chynah rode with her mom home. Jayd called Jeremy back.

The conversation between Jeremy & Jayd

Jayd: What’s Up Hun?

Jeremy: Nothing, Why haven’t you been Answering?

Jayd: Because I was in school. Is that a problem?

Jeremy: No, it sound like you got an attitude.

Jayd: Maybe, Look I don’t know how to tell you this, but Jeremy I think you are TOO attached to me, like I’m your first girl or REAL relationship.

Jeremy: Wow, I didn’t know that’s how you felt. You could’ve told me this earlier in this relationship.

 Jayd: JEREMY WHAT DO YOU MEAN EARLIER IN THE RELATIONSHIP, I’M IN SCHOOL & YOU BLOWING UP MY PHONE? IT’S ANNOYING. DO YOU NOT GET THAT? ANNOYING! Jayd Got Louder

Jeremy: Oh, Wow Jayd if I’m annoying to you, then… Jeremy Got Quiet

Jayd: WHAT? THEN WHAT? Jayd Was NOW Annoyed

Jeremy: Then were done

Jayd: OKAY, FINE THEN. Jayd was hurt, but she thought “I’m a bad chick, I got this”.

Jeremy: You Taking This Like You Don’t Care. Jeremy was hurt

Jayd: I DON’T, SORRY JEREMY, I CAN’T DO THIS… GOODBYE!! With that jayd was hung up.

                       Jayd at home

Jayd walked through the door. “MAMA!” jayd yelled loud. She heard no reply. “MAMA!” she got louder just in case mama was upstairs or in the back. She got no reply. She called mama. She picked up, “Mama where are you?” jayd asked. “I’m out baby girl, I will be back around 4” jayd looked at the clock it read 2:30. “Okay see you then!” with that jayd hung up. “YESSS!!” jayd thought to her self. Jayd went to her room, she got on the computer. Jayd loaded up the internet and got on Facebook. Jayd saw all this drama, she doesn’t like drama but she stuck her nose in the drama. She only got in it to stand up for her friend, which wasn’t a good idea.

TBC…

Until Then… -Its @PROUDnika!! J

Chynah Adn Jayd !

Chapter 2: Dangerous Liaisons

Since we have mandatory AP meetings during break and lunch on Wednesdays, I won’t be able to chill today. Sometimes this whole AP thing is highly overrated. And when the AP exams come in spring, I won’t have any time to socialize outside of the informal club at all.

I hate these meetings. They’re long and boring. “Like I want to sit there!” Jayd thought. And after all those meetings it all leads down to my least favorite teacher Mrs. Bennett. After she confronted me about dating Jeremy I never liked her. Her voice and her perfume make me sick. Usually I always eat a snickers bar but now with seeing her face I can’t eat.

“Jayd!” Chynah said snapping me out of my little world. Chynah is Jayd’s friend and has been her friend since 7^th grade. Jayd is now in 11^th grade. I’m glad because I was about to mentally choke Mrs. Bennett. Chynah is 16 she would love to go to Princeton University. Chynah grades are the bomb (y’all know what that mean). Jayd and Chynah both got accepted to Harvard University. Chynah wants to go further. Jayd doesn’t mind going to Princeton.

“What’s up” jayd said looking over her shoulder because she was facing her locker. “Hey Hun, what class you ‘bout to go to?’’ Chynah said. Jayd had a weird facial expression because Chynah was in Jayd’s class that she was switching to. “Sadly Mrs. Bennett.” Jayd said. Jayd was mad she had to switch to that old lady! “Oh, damn jayd.” Chynah said laughing. “Hoe you got her ass too.” Jayd said seriously not finding shit funny with Chynah.  Jayd was now laughing because Chynah wasn’t. “What the hell is funny Jayd?” Chynah said trying so hard not hard not to laugh at jayd facial expression. Ring Ring! The bell rung. “C’mon hoe!” jayd said sounding like she was so disappointed.

In Mrs. Bennett Class

“Okay Class!” Mrs. Bennett said trying to calm the class down from 5 minutes of talking. “What Now?” Jayd said because Jeremy wasn’t in school and he called her 5 times and she never answered. She didn’t know it was time to stop talking. “Jayd what was that?” Mrs. Bennett said sounding confused. “Nothing continue your lesson or speech or whatever you was saying!” Jayd was annoyed because of her phone constantly ringing.

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Visuals

First = Jayd (Yes Its Raven Symone')

Second= iPhone 5 Jayd's Phone

Third= Jeremy ( Jayd's BoyFried)

Fourth=Chynah

Fifth=Mrs.Bennett !

How She New

How she knew!

The night before was prom. Jayd didn’t go with Jeremy she went with Rah. One day, jayd was in the car with her mom. Her mom was blasting Pink Friday. Jayd loved Nicki Minaj, but she was in the mood for talking. So she called Jeremy. Jeremy answered; Jayd and Jeremy talked for about 20 mins. Jeremy just blurted it out and asked jayd “So did you have fun at prom last night?’’ Jeremy said quickly. Jayd was nervous she didn’t want Jeremy to know that she still talked to Rah. “Jayd?” Jeremy asked annoyed because she didn’t answer. “Yes I did.” Jayd answered trying to sound confident. “Who did you go with?” Jeremy asked, he knew jayd was up to something it never took her that long to answer a question. “Jeremy!” Jayd said about to ask him something but confused about what she was going to ask him for. “Yes honey” Jeremy said. “Can I ask you something?” jayd said. “Yes.” Jeremy said sounding clueless about why jayd asked that. “Okay. Why do you ask me so many questions?” Jayd said biting her nails because she was nervous. “Just tell the boy jayd” mama said. “Tell him what mama?’’ jayd asked to see what mama was trying to say. “Tell him the truth that you went with Rah.” Mama said. Jayd was wondering how her mom knew. She said it loud enough so Jeremy could hear. “Jayd you went with that nigga Rah? Don’t lie to me Jayd!” Jeremy said now mad at jayd. “Jeremy, yes I went with Rah to prom, but trust me nothing happened.” Jayd said beginning to get a little frightened because Jeremy didn’t like Rah at all. They fought and Rah beat Jeremy so ever since then Jeremy never like Rah. “Jayd don’t lie to me!” Jeremy said starting to have anger in his voice. “Jeremy please. Okay all we did was kissed. Jayd said not really wanting to tell him the truth. All of a sudden Jayd heard a click. “Jeremy?’’ she said, she heard nothing. She put the phone on the charger in the car. She then began talking to her mom. “Mama how did you know that, that is what I was thinking?” jayd was really confused. “Baby, I never told anyone this, but I can read minds.” Mama said. Jayd was now shocked and had nothing to say. She forced her self to talk. “But why, how, what---“Before jayd could finish her sentence her mom said “Jayd I don’t know how, that’s just how the Williams family is.”

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Just Friends

Chapter 1: Just Friends

After both Rah’s surprise kiss yesterday afternoon and my first dream last night about Jeremy being Tania’s baby daddy, I’m even more confused about what to do with Rah and Jeremy. I can’t front, Rah’s kiss is still making me tingle, and I have to see Jeremy this morning. How can I look Jeremy in the face after what I did? Well, technically, what Rah did? But I could have stopped him if I really wanted to.

“Jayd, get out the bathroom. I need to go now,” my cousin said. Snapping me back into real life from my thinking session. Because I was so into my thinking session, my hair wasn’t done, I hadn’t brushed my teeth, didn’t shower yet, and didn’t get dressed, So I rushed through my morning routine. My cousin made sure that I had hurried because he constantly knocked on the door, and I constantly told him “To Wait.” He ended up leaving from in front of the bathroom door. “When I leave you can come and handle your business but while I’m still in the bathroom you will have to wait” Jayd says not knowing if Bryan is still at the door. She said it loud enough so mama can hear it. “Girl he’s gone” says mama. “How did she know he moved?” Jayd was confused. Once again mama was reading her mind “Seriously I’m going to have to say something to Mama about this mess with her being able to read my mind” Jayd says. Jayd is now done with her morning routine. As Jayd walks into her room to put on her shoes and grab her book bag mama is now gone. She was no longer in that comfortable position. She had went in the kitchen to make me breakfast. She knew Bryan wasn’t going to cook for me “That old fat pig” Jayd thought about Bryan. Jayd was now eating her Pancakes, bacon, eggs, and drinking her orange juice. She received an incoming text from Jeremy as it read “be there in 5 minutes” Jayd was now rushing to eat her food. Mama was looking as Jayd as if she was crazy. “What did I do mama?” Jayd asked. “nothing baby girl.”  “okay Mama well Jeremy is on his way. I have to go now” Jayd says kissing her mom on her cheek. “ bye baby have a good day at school.”

Prolouge

Prologue

“Sometimes the people you think are your friends can be your worst enemies,” my mom says. I can hear her voice, but I can’t see a thing. I feel suspended in time, like I’m in between the dream world and reality. “Yeah, Mom. I feel you.” Did I say that aloud or in my head?

“They pretend to be your friend, while all the while, they really want more. They either want to feed off your popularity, talent, cookies, anything you’ve got to give. Whatever they think they can have they will take.”

This feels too real to be a dream.

“Remember, Jayd, lust takes all love gives. And, I’m not talking about material things. Friends give there true selves to you. Frenemies, on the other hand, pretend to give until you start reciprocating. Then the giving turns into taking. And those are not friends. Those people are leaches. And, like all leaches, they must have eliminated in order for you to thrive.

     

For the second time since falling asleep last night, I sit straight up in my bed, breathing hard and sweating like I just ran a mile. Good thing I shower in the morning. Damn, what was that? It wasn’t like really a dream. It was more like a psychic conversation between me and my mom. I wonder if she did that on purpose.

My mom being able to read my mind really freaks me out still. She says she can get only in my head. I wonder how long she’s been able to read my thoughts. Now she’s sneaking into my dream. Man, this is getting to be a bit too much for a sister. But, like my mom said, it comes with the territory of being a Williams woman, just like out never-ending drama. “Jayd, wake up, girl. You’re already five minutes late.” Mama says without moving out of her comfortable position In the bed across from mine. How she knows what time it is without looking, I’ll never know. But I know she’s right. I can hear Bryan stirring around in the kitchen, so I know it must be past time for me to get up. As I stumble out of my twin size bed to retrieve my outfit for day from behind my bedroom door, I accidentally step on the rhinestone sandals Jeremy brought me sticking out from underneath my bed. “Remember your mother’s words, Jayd,” Mama says, making me recall the dream I just snapped out of. As if it isn’t bad enough I have Mama in my head, now my mom has crept her way in, too. What The Hell?